Wednesday, January 9, 2013

God Says "You're Ready!"

I feel that the past two years have concluded a particularly challenging season of career changes.  Feeling as if I was finally surfacing, I asked, “Okay, God, what does the next chapter hold?  Send it my way.” 

Within the last two months, I had three job offers for short-term but ongoing, well-paying work.  Work not exactly in my wheelhouse but close enough that I felt challenged and also expectant.  I was thrilled and knew God was blessing my family.  I said to my husband, "God's opening new doors for us."

But Tuesday after completing the first day of the first gig, I was already fighting the darkness. 
I didn’t know what I was doing;
I didn’t know the people with whom I was working;
I hated the pressure of working at a skill set I had not already mastered. 
I began to question the path. 

The dark one took hold of these fears and threw in some special circumstances just for good measure: no recovery yet from this nasty flu, an utter and complete lack of sleep; and travel to unknown places (my Achilles heel!). 

Just when I began to spiral into a tailspin of panic, I cried, “Where are You?  I need You?” 

I heard in response, “You’re ready.” 
“You’re ready.” 
I felt awash with sweet peace. 
Of course. 
It didn’t matter what obstacles were in my way, whether realistic or self-inflicted. 
God said I was ready.
He wouldn't have sent me the opportunities if I weren't. 
He just wanted me to call for His help. 
He wanted me to thank Him for the challenges and lean on Him in the uncertainty. 
What an opportunity for faith and His grace.

So may I make a (fairly obvious and somewhat redundant) suggestion to you?  The next time you’re in your own personal tailspin of insecurity, call out to Him for help but know... 
He’s with you.  He may be carrying you.  But He wouldn't send blessings for growth your way without knowing your strength. He thinks you’re ready.

Monday, January 7, 2013

Old Habits Die (Hard)

Stale, stagnant, weak, ineffectual.
Old habits leave me feeling this way.
I want them to die.
I try quite often to eradicate them.
Don't I?
Feels like a constant war, yet I'll admit that sometimes I just get tired and want to give up.

The start of 2013 has been no different than any other in the world of news, articles, and blog posts.
They all address that age old theme: New Year's resolutions & goals.
(1) The most popular
(2) How to keep 'em and
(3) How soon before you'll break 'em.
(Translation:  Give up even trying to move forward ya' big, fat loser!)

I waffle each year on whether or not I want to choose a habit I'd like to resolve.
The waffling, turns out, is not a good way to start.
Some years I do make a resolution and some I don't.
This year, I didn't even consider making one.
(Yay, no waffling!)
Because when I considered those habits I'd like to change or improve upon, I realized that the habits with which I struggle don't define me or condemn me; there is no ultimate win or lose; there will never be a definitive resolution.

Essentially, I'm only human;
therefore, there will always be a brownie here
or a credit card bill there
or a line of gossip here
or a child's wayward attitude there
waiting to assail me. 

Yet it's in my walk with Him  -
strong or weak...
hiding or seeking...
limping along, being carried or running with endurance -
that will define how I will be set free of these earthly shackles.

So here it is.
I resolve to know Him.
To seek Him.
To serve Him.
And to ask for forgiveness when I wander off to a better known, more frequently travelled, less Spirit-filled path.
I resolve to live JOY daily in gratitude to Him for loving me...
guiding me...
accepting me...
forgiving me...
old habits & all.

Thursday, January 3, 2013

Happy New Year!

God's Daily Bi-Weekly Weekly Monthly??? (AaaarrrggghhhMessage!

As I emerge from my Christmas coated Alabamian cocoon...
Then extricate myself from the orange blanket which has warmed me through my flu for the past three days...
Before I embark on another year of daily...okay, okay, semi-daily...messages from my sweet Father in Heaven,
I want to wish you each a beautiful new year this 2013.

And what better way to commemorate this auspicious journey than with the Irish blessing given me as a surprise Christmas gift by my lovely goddaughter, Audrey - in honor of my sweet Daddy.
What a lass!

"May you always have
A sunbeam to warm you,
Good luck to charm you,
And a sheltering angel
So nothing can harm you;
Laughter to cheer you,
Faithful friends near you,
And whenever you pray,
Heaven to hear you."

I pray that each of you finds good health,
prosperous roads
in your new year endeavors. 
I look forward to travelling my path with you.

Thank you for reading....
Happy New Year!